More good news :)

My OB and surgeon agree that there is no need for surgery based on the mammo and ultrasound done. My surgeon said he would still do it if I wanted, to be sure... I said, "No, you are the one with the medical degree, I trust your judgement."

Next I will have blood work done combined with a level II ultrasound of the baby to determine if there is any need to worry about birth defects, considering my "advanced maternal age". I don't feel comfortable with having an amnio, so i will settle for these tests. I have the blood work scheduled for the 15th and will have the ultrasound on March 10th. Hopefully we will get a good look at the critter and if he/she isn't too terribly shy that day we will be able to tell if it's a girl or boy :) I'll be right at 20 weeks then.

Other than that, just trying to declutter! I just finally finished my yearly clean & toss of the girls room but still have bags and bags of their stuff to go through from last years "buggy" incident, or what I like to call "the time mommy almost needed to be medicated due to the freaking out over the bugs that would not die". Yup, still bags of stuff on the porch that we sealed up to kill those dirty lil bastards, hoping they would freeze to death out in our poorly insulated porch. I cannot even bring myself to say the proper name of said bugs because it makes me itch and freak a little to this day. Yes, I have control issues.

Anywho... on to the porch and the garage. AND the walk up attic, which we will start construction on this year to make the girls a huge room. Then John and I can have the larger room back an the baby can have it's own room. For now, the girls still have the larger room and John and I will have to put the crib in our room. Should be interesting!!! The best part? John and I are going to be sleeping on a full size bed (we gave the girls our king for now, to make room for the crib coming in July). Or as John says, Mommy will have a full size bed to her and her pregnant self while Daddy sleeps wedged between to miniature but equally as effective bed hogs.

It's either that or I will have to hang my belly over the side of the bed. ;)

SIGH, what a relief

Sorry to be late in updating today... it has been a very bus day for me! Emma is really sick with a chest cold and not only did I have to get her seen today this am, but I had to change where I was getting my mammo done to save money at the last minute as well! Luckily they were able to get me in today because it's at the hospital where John works as an IT, and they all know him and were all so kind in getting me in. Then of course, I had to work tonight.

After 4 views, and 15 minutes of waiting... and me starting to freak out and finally talking to God- which I have not done in a very long time- I started to just talk. I said, "OK God, whatever happens I am trusting that you are going to get me through it." A calm came over me, and I was reminded of the scripture "Be still and know I am God"~ Psalms 46:10.

A few minutes later the radiologist came in, held my hand and said he saw nothing, no calcifications, nothing at all to warrant any further tests... just to chalk it up to breast changes due to pregnancy.

I am hoping that my surgeon will see no need for a biopsy/outpatient surgery, my appointment is this next Monday so I will let you know.

Ladies, please... continue to o those monthly breast exams and yearly mammos. You never know when things could change. New statistics show that a woman's chance of getting breast cancer are less than 1 in 8 now... whether or not you have family history.

Thank you again for all of you out there who thought of me, prayed for me or both. I could feel you praying for me today, it was so needed and so truly appreciated.

Much love,
Mert

Health update

I saw the surgeon this am... I will have a Mammo on Friday, results on Monday, but either way I will be having a decent sized section removed in out patient surgery for a biopsy. I will probably find out Monday when it's scheduled. He says he feels other lumps in that area but thinks it's not anything to worry about... but wants a biopsy under local to be sure. Removing the section is dual purpose... for biopsy purposes but also hopefully they will get everything and not have to go back in if it turns out to be malignant.

On the bright (and slightly morbid) side, I had been thinking about a breast reduction. I wonder if my left boob is gonna be jealous that the right one is gonna be skinnier ;)

WOW

I am copying some of this from a response comment I left for Pam on my previous post, and I wasn't sure if I should even post this because I'm a mess and I have nothing good to say lately:

Thank you everyone for your responses and support :)It truly is appreciated.

My ob office called yesterday and said that my pap came back with some abnormal cells so they want to do more tests on my next appt 2/4/10. My best friend just happened to call me right after they did, so it was a real blessing. They weird thing is I KNEW as he was doing my pap that it was going to come back abnormal.

Maybe it was God warning me and preparing me. I don't know.

I am hanging by a thread, I don't know how much more stress I can take. Last night I had to lay down for 1/2 hr because I could feel my uterus contracting. I'll be 13 week this coming tuesday so...

*Sigh* I am hanging in there trying to be positive.