Sunday, January 10, 2010

Hiho, hiho it's off to the surgeon I go....

I had my first official OB appointment last Thursday and he checked the lump on my right breast again. He thinks it's nothing but is sending me to see a surgeon. My OB says that they can do a mammo once I am in the 2nd trimester which will be in just over a week.

I would like to say that I am feeling good and positive but for the most part I am just existing and just hoping that my appointment scheduled for the 20th goes for the best. I am trying not to think about it and have been doing OK but did have a bit of a melt down last night after we got home from a friends house.

I'm looking at all the angles and have all my bases covered at least to begin with, what ever road this trip leads me on.

Unfortunately my faith is running a little low. I blame it on being a serial pessimist. ;) Any prayers and happy thoughts that you can send my way would be much appreciated.

Also I have a young friend Michael who has had a stroke, he is only in his 30's and has 3 kids (8 yr old twins and a 7 month old)... and my friend I will call L who is having some difficulties with her last pap and is having further tests. Both of these friends could use some love too. I am praying fervently for them.

It's been an emotional week for me too considering Emma had an appointment same day as my OB for being a bit lethargic and pale, which concerns me given her aortic bicuspid valve. She is getting some vitamins with iron and antibiotics, her pediatrician wants to see her back next week and if she hasn't improved ... it's off to the pediatric cardiologist slightly earlier than expected.

To top it all off my OB was unable to find/get a heartbeat "because it's so tiny" *sigh* Better luck next time I guess.

Anywho, trying to keep my chin up... I will let you know what our docs say as soon as they do what they need to do, whatever that is.



tlawwife said...

Sounds like you have a lot going on. Saying prayers for you and yours.

Holly Schwendiman said...

Scary stuff hon, so sorry. If it helps, I can relate to the lump fear and crazy timing with a new baby. I found a lump just a few months before my daughter found us. At the time we knew she was coming and we'd been selected but her birth was still a couple months out and wham I go to bed one night having identified a lump. I couldn't help but think to myself, "dagnabit, I FINALLY find out I'm gonna be a mom and I'm probably gonna have cancer and die now." Now of course I didn't dwell on this but I'd be lying if I said it didn't go through my head. Long story short I went in for surgery to remove it 3 months after my angel was born. It turned out to be nothing dangerous, but I was glad to have it gone. I also enjoyed being knocked out after 3 months of sleep deprivation! LOL So I can relate to the worries. I'll be praying for you that your experience ends as positive as mine. :)


meleah rebeccah said...

I am also a serial pessimist, however, I will be sending you my prayers, good vibes and positive thoughts. xoxoxo

Christian said...

Hi Mary,
I am sorry that you are going through all this. I'll be keeping you in my prayers, let me know if there is anything I can do for you and the girls.
Love you lots,
Aunt Yvonne

Jennfactor 10 said...

Love and positive (negative, but in a positive way) vibes from California, Sister!

Pamela said...

hows it going?....?....?

lifting you up.

Mert said...

Thank you everyone for your responses and support :)It truly is appreciated.

Pam, My ob office called yesterday and said that my pap came back with some abnormal cells so they want to do more tests on my next appt 2/4/10. My best friend just happened to call me right after they did, so it was a real blessing. They weird thing is I KNEW as he was ding my pap that it was going to come back weird. I am hanging by a tread, I don't know how much more stress I can take. Last night I had to lay down for 1/2 hr because I could feel my uterus contracting. I'll be 13 week this coming tuesday so...